...."if i was to paint a picture of my life, with any colours i desired, i would use them all, but from the start of the painting to the end it would go from a bright happy yellow, all the way to the deepest darkest black. Showing how far down this pit of resentment and hollowness this life is offering me at the moment, making me feel un needed yet chained here for a reason beyond my recognition. un wanting of harm to others or myself yet un needing of this burden life bestows on my person as of recent, I can no longer decide which is the path of truth, of justice, of the right way...and which is of wrong, injustice and the wrong way....and there are no sighnposts in this world that could ever show me just where each road leads or ends..only the directions i can take while i walk blindly"

You know, just when you feel things are about to turn, they go straight on and take you somewhere you don't wanna go. And such is life, after this morning at work i just wanted to go back to bed and sleep and not bother to get up again. Same old stuff, nothing new or better to be had.

There was one good point today though, when i got a few minutes to myself today, i decided to work on a commission i have been trying to sort out for a friend of mine, its my first female anthro pic, and its manga/ anime styled. And from the look so far, its looking good.

Other than that nothing much to write about, got wet in the rain, played darts and lost a game i should have won, had to jog home 2 miles cause of no taxis cause of football.....meh.

Things are not getting better yet...

Oh well, i stayed in bed for most of the day, just couldn't be bothered to get up early so was chatting online for a while to some friends and foiund a few things i didnt wanna kno out.....but what did i expect from the last couple of weeks.

anyway, thought id try somewhere else for nintendo wii's and turns out, theres none in the country....they are under stocked on them hehe....go nintendo, beating microsoft and sony. Although i would like to get one in the next few weeks please if possible *giggles*.

At least i kno other people have got it worse than me today which makes me realise that no matter how bad my day/ week may be...it could always be worse...
No matter how bad it does seem.

Anyway since im back in work tomorrow im gonna keep this one short before i start ranting about my job and stuff....cause i kno how much i could rant on here.....signing out TTYL

As from finding out that my 'account' had to be sorted out and then going to the bank only to find that it shuts at the very time i get there yesterday afternoon, i wasn't expecting today to go well either..... and, well, it could have been better. Took bout an hour this morning in town to get it sorted *meh* so i was waiting for ages, but it got sorted out. So then i thinks to myself, i dunno what to do, so i go looking for things to do round town, like trying to find a nintendo Wii console........
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...
Yeah.

Every single shop i went in...sold out. One shop had one in second hand, missing a power cable, which you cannot buy in shops. So i can't get have a Wii just yet then, have to hold on a bit longer. so i spent in total, 5 or so hours in town, with nothing to do but walk round shops, and even listen to a guy playing blues songs in the shopping area (how very appropriate and fitting eh?)

Returned home after having a bit of food and then realised that at home i couldnt find anything to do either. Although, one good thing i do have...... i bought a zitabo (kinda like a lap guitar but has a strange tone to it) so i thought id have a go at playing stuff on it. It has to have one of the most depressing tones to it i have ever heard but an awesome sound for its size so that is gonna be used in my music recordings when i start them again.

Oh well, i think im gonna be in bed for a very long time tomorrow, can't think of anything i wanna get out of bed for.....this is me signing off..... TTFN

Now i know this gets brought up a LOT in the world today, and it has good and bad comments flying around like a released set of doves from a cage.... but some people don't seem to get the message about parts of it. They create there own little 'version of events' and set that up as 'their truth' in the hope of more followers to the fort. Now i'm writing this after a few irritating weeks of things and i feel i have to get it out of my system. FOR HEAVENS SAKE JUST DROP THE WHOLE SLG THE FURRYS ACT NOW, on and on and on they go, 'furrys are this, furrys do that, nah nah nah.....without even knowing the truth about anything. Fair enough everything has its flaws, im not saying the whole fandom is perfect but some things being spread round are just not even tangible. Being taken to extreme levels of 'overcommitted chinese whispers' and making things out to be 'illegal' or 'severely unjust'. I'm only gonna say this once and this goes to the spreaders, the truth manglers, the lie makers and them types. Most of the furry fandom does NOT and i repeat DOES NOT DO WHAT YOU CLAIM THEM TO DO, NO MATTER WHAT YOU SAY. Get your facts straight before you even think of spreading rumours, cause we know what happens when rumours spread. And on that matter, if you seem to come up with the ideas on the very dark side of the fandom which doesn't often go on, then what, in your mind, are you thinking of at the time?